There’s something heartwarming about the phrase, “this made me think of you.” As if there was some gentle reminder that I exist, and an important enough to be remembered. Those little reminders that make someone think of you, enough to say something or capture a moment to share with you later, are some of the most important things on this earth. Being remembered, feeling important to someone, they’re both things that humans need. Maybe not necessarily to live, but to be happy. Everyone wants to feel acknowledged, and the picture on this post did that for me.
So here are a few things to keep in mind,
1. You matter. You’re important.
2. Someone is probably thinking about you right now.
3. You’re never completely alone. And if you are, you’re not on your own at least.
4. There’s something different about you from everyone else. Everyone has something that sets them apart. You are not a copy of anyone else.
5. Trains have cool graffiti, and I freaking love cool graffiti.
6. The world has much to see, and you can see it through other people’s eyes if you can’t get every place.
I grew up surrounded by sunflowers. In the summertime, the hills had so many they looked yellow from a distance. I like to think this helped me grow up to see beauty in life a little easier than most people, and ultimately, I think that’s why I’m generally happier than a lot of people I meet. Notice the storms and the wild flowers, and try to be more like both of them.
Making decisions is one of the things I’m just all around absolutely horrible at. The decision making process for me is more complicated than rocket science. I like to think it’s my anxiety and my bipolar disorder messing with my life, and that it’s not just me being bad at life, but truthfully, I don’t know. I don’t understand how my mind works, and that’s today’s message: you won’t ever understand my mind either, so don’t bother trying to.
I’ve made a lot of good decisions in my life; starting my college career in Wayne, moving to Lincoln, getting close to certain people, etc., but I’ve also made a lot of bad choices. When the consequences come around, I often find myself wondering what in God’s good name I was doing or thinking, but that’s all I can do: wonder. I can spend days analyzing my actions or seconds dismissing them, but either way, I’ll never understand why I did what I did. During the process of making each decision, there’s a disconnect somewhere.
So when I do something you don’t like, don’t bother trying to understand why I did it. Just hate me if you’re going to, or quit wasting your time worrying about it. When I do something that makes you happy, don’t bother wonderingn what made you so lucky, just accept it. Don’t bother with why.
I am a tiny speck of sand in an hour glass. Everything is constantly changing and shifting around me. We’re all just waiting for it to be our turn and then finally, we fall, but as soon as we adjust to the new normal, everything is flipped upside and changing again. It’s complete chaos for me. But for you, it’s just time. It’s strange, isn’t it? That in order to comprehend the vast expanse of nothingness you need time to live a simplified, more concise life, but in order to do that you have to cause change for me? The tiny speck in the hour glass. What is simple for you is chaos to me and vice versa. Change is constant. Your choices change lives that aren’t just yours. Remember that.
There’s a difference between getting lost and being lost. That difference is purpose; it all has to do with purpose. Whether you are lost on purpose, whether you know your purpose, whether there even is a purpose… but getting lost on purpose makes you a wanderer and just being lost makes you normal.
You create your own regality. I choose to live in a reality where every day is an adventure. I choose getting lost over being lost. I choose to be a warrior when my mind wants me to be a worrier. I choose the create my own happiness and spread it around as much as possible.
Everyone is just a tiny speck of stardust on a little blue marble hurdling through space. Remember how small you are and how little your choices really matter. Don’t be too hard on yourself for your mistakes. Just remember to do whatever it is you do with purpose. Get lost on purpose. Wander aimlessly on purpose. Be a warrior on purpose. Purposefully create the reality you desire.