The Girl I Used to Be

I used to sit around waiting to receive flowers, then I learned to pick my own. That is the exact epitome of the past few years for me. I learned that life isn’t some Disney fairytale or romantic movie where some perfect prince is going to come in and take care of me. I learned that even with the perfect guy, life is better the more you care for yourself and love yourself. Self care and confidence are the two most important things to being happy, with or without someone. So pick your own damn flowers. 🌺 🌹 

Other self care tips,

Pay attention to the little things and be forever grateful for each blessing in your life. 

Remember, you’re in control of your future and pay attention to your strengths and use them to better your life. 

Surround yourself with people who build you up and make you feel more empowered. 

Eat healthy, exercise, practice good hygiene, and exercise your spirituality, be it religious or not. 

Take time to do whatever it is that makes your soul feel most at peace. 

Find ways to better yourself as frequently as possible. Don’t forget to keep growing as a person. 

Do whatever it takes to make yourself happy first, then worry about the people around you. Feed your own fire to burn brighter for others. 

Cling to What is Good

Like breakfast foods at midnight,

Like sunshine on a rainy day,

Like a flower growing out of a crack in the concrete,

Like violently fiery pink clouds in front of a sunrise,

Like a shooting star on a dark night,

Like finding five dollars while doing laundry,

Find the good in beautifully out of place places. 
Like lazy Sunday mornings full of sunshine,

Like glowbugs in the early evening,

Like forehead kisses as you’re waking up,

Like a secret exchange of a mischievous smirk,

Like Saturday nights out with your best friends,

Like holding your hand in the car on long drives,

Hold the good little things in life close. 
Like zip-lining down a volcano in Hawaii,

Like driving your brand new Lexus,

Like making a life long friend,

Like getting to spend a day with everyone you love,

Like putting your toes in the ocean and feeling it in your soul,

Like finally going to bed after the worlds longest day,

Find the good in life, and cling to it. 

To My Best Friends

You’re worth so much more than gold to me. I just want you to know that. Once you’re in my life, and I love you, I’ll do anything for you. I’ll always be there, in as many ways and as much as I possibly can. The only thing is, occasionally I know you get down. I know you get down on yourself and on your life and it breaks my heart, because you’re the entire universe in one little drop of human. Your eyes are wild fires and your soul is made of stardust. Your wars are my wars, and we’re warriors so we’ll never lose. You heart is sunshine and your laugh is glittering light shining through the darkest dark. This earth needs people like you. They need the beautiful laughter, and the little boosts of confidence yougive those around you, and the brightness that shines from within you. The world is dark, but you’re like the moon, chasing the night away without disrupting peace. 

I’d kill for you. I’d jump off a bridge for you. You deserve the entire world and more and I don’t ever want you to forget your worth, so if the dark days ever get to be too much, come to me. I’ll help you find your light again. I love you guys. 

In Lincoln, Thinkin about 2:30 AM

That’s where and when I want to be with you. That’s my favorite time and place to spend time with you. The city sleeps but you’re wide awake, laughing at my stupid jokes, making me smile. 

Other 2:30 AM moments, you know, the ones without you, are especially lonely. They’re vacant and yet full, but only of everything I don’t want. I would give up the rest of my early mornings just for a few with you. But the ones without you are much more frequent, and mildly heartbreaking. 

Lincoln is our city. I don’t think I could think of Lincoln and not picture your face. These streets, these lights, much love for late nights, the ones with you in them anyway. We have a whole city to roam, and I think we should go crashing through the streets during my favorite time.  We could make noise, and just not care about anything together. That would be nice. 

So thank you for my favorite time in my favorite place with my favorite person. I can’t wait until it all lines up again. 


There’s something heartwarming about the phrase, “this made me think of you.” As if there was some gentle reminder that I exist, and an important enough to be remembered. Those little reminders that make someone think of you, enough to say something or capture a moment to share with you later, are some of the most important things on this earth. Being remembered, feeling important to someone, they’re both things that humans need. Maybe not necessarily to live, but to be happy. Everyone wants to feel acknowledged, and the picture on this post did that for me. 

So here are a few things to keep in mind,

1. You matter. You’re important. 

2. Someone is probably thinking about you right now. 

3. You’re never completely alone. And if you are, you’re not on your own at least. 

4. There’s something different about you from everyone else. Everyone has something that sets them apart. You are not a copy of anyone else. 

5. Trains have cool graffiti, and I freaking love cool graffiti. 

6. The world has much to see, and you can see it through other people’s eyes if you can’t get every place. 

Where the Wild Flowers Grow

I grew up surrounded by sunflowers. In the summertime, the hills had so many they looked yellow from a distance. I like to think this helped me grow up to see beauty in life a little easier than most people, and ultimately, I think that’s why I’m generally happier than a lot of people I meet. Notice the storms and the wild flowers, and try to be more like both of them.